Back in
April Paul and I were in a place where we wondered about God. Not His existence
but in His abundance. In the bible it says,
Matthew 7:11 "If you
then, who are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more
will your Father who is in heaven give good things to those who ask him!”
And while we have seen God do wonderful
and abundant things, we've also had a lot of just making it or barely making it
or moments of giving things up because it didn't work out. And for some of
March and all of April and May two of our rooms have sat empty. No student
income. That’s on the low end a $2600 loss, and on the high end a $3700 loss.
That’s significant. My husband is a student. Now of course we have saved to
make sure that we can afford our house without it being full, and that is why
it was ok that in January we only had one student and why we were still doing
ok. But it’s not ideal. And it is hard to know what trust looks like in this
time. Because I am human and I am sinful, and my memory of the good things gets
clouded by the hard.
So, how do I trust that our God is the
giver of good gifts when things aren’t panning out as I expect? What does it look like to step out in faith
and obedience – engaging with God in the midst, knowing that provision isn’t
necessarily around the corner as I would hope, but in fact around 2 corners at
the 13th hour, and not even the 11th?
So I sat with Paul that week and we
prayed. He held me; dejected, discouraged wife. He held me and prayed. He asked
God for faith for us, for relationship with God, for trust. He prayed for our
home and those currently in it. He prayed for our marriage. He thanked God for
all of those things and for the hard moments so we would know we need God. And
he prayed for provision and abundance. His faith moved me and God strengthened
me. We went about our week knowing we had no idea what was happening or would
happen, but knowing that God had given us our home and has called us to the
things we fill our life with and that He would guard these things.
Now at the time this story takes place,
I wish I could tell you that we got an email telling us that we would now had
students for May. I can’t tell you that – we didn’t. But hindsight is 20/20 and
I can tell you that we ended up getting a student for June, and another student
for 5 weeks this summer. This fell short of our original goals and yet was the
biggest blessing we could imagine. Looking back over the summer I can see that
God had hand chosen our students. We couldn’t be more grateful for the people
he placed in our home. But I didn’t know that when this story begins, in April.
So I can’t tell you about a student miracle, because I didn’t know about it
yet. I can tell you about a different miracle God did in response to our moment
and Paul’s prayer.
May 1st was our 3 year wedding
anniversary. My husband
is a student. We aren’t rolling in the dough, as one might assume. We knew we
could feel ok about putting aside some money to do something – a nice dinner or
a cheap dinner and a show or dinner at home and a night at a reasonable hotel.
If I could have chosen what to do for the night it would be, of course, a nice
dinner out and a night at a hotel. This was obviously a pipe dream.
We
originally decided to go for the dinner and I dreamed of eating at Chambar. Chambar
is one of the top 10 ranked restaurants in Vancouver and comes highly
recommended by our foodie friends. Paul thought it was on the high end of our
budget, and realistically he was probably right. That doesn’t mean I didn’t
want to go there though – and the death of that dream was sad for me. We
planned to eat elsewhere and catch some theatre sports – our standard date
night plan.
Then we got
an email saying that an event we had planned to go to was being held at Chambar
on Tuesday, and that the meal would be complimentary. What?? When I saw that
email, I felt a nudge in my spirit from God saying that He wanted to bless us.
Plus its with great friends and that’s even better, honestly. Paul feels out of
place in fancy places, but loves our friends and I love people all the time, so
friends make everything better, especially good food. This event is Answered
Prayer #1. Because you can be sure I’d been praying about Chambar.
We decided
that since we would be having an amazing dinner out Tuesday that we wanted to
instead chose to spend the night in a hotel for our anniversary. When we looked
at rates for downtown it was pretty steep, but I knew that since I work
downtown, I’d rather have something not quite as nice but near to work for the
morning. My dream was for the Sutton Place Hotel. I’d been there for a work
function and it was lovely and I knew that would be a treat. Their prices were over
$200 and I knew that was further than we could stretch. We both looked around
online but in the meantime I told someone (confidentiality prevents me from
saying who) what we were wishing to do in the hopes she could help us find a
good rate, and by that afternoon I’d gotten a message from her saying she’d
booked us in at the Sutton, and that we didn’t have to pay, she’d used points
to cover us as a gift.
To recap: Dinner
at Chambar Tuesday with friends and Wednesday night at the Sutton Place Hotel
downtown Vancouver all for free, including breakfast the next morning. Are you
kidding me? At the end of our time there I only had a 5 minute walk to work in
the morning, we’d enjoyed an AMAZING night at the hotel and even better, we’d
found a gift card from the church and had a pretty great dinner at Earls for
$12 after the gift card.
And as all
of that sunk in, God nudged my heart and reminded me that He is abundant and
that He loves us and wants to bless us.
My word.
That God. I am humbled by His love.
1 comment:
Thanks for the encouragements -- last year, when it was hard, it seemed I could at least see God blessing other people. But this year there is so much suffering everywhere. It is good to read these stories :)
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